The age of Uncertainty ....

          At only two points in one's life does a person gets the chance to reminisce all the life till spent, one while on deathbed, and other when the person is about to graduate. At the later stage, typhons of racing thoughts strike the mind unannounced on daily basis, and heaps and heaps of 'what if' and 'should have' pollute the only working machinery.

      At one moment you find yourself all active and ambitioned, learning new languages, doing new things in an effort to regain the reins of your life and the next moment all placid , just staring at the wall in front and thinking has it ever been this beautiful?!. One moment making plans to eradicate world hunger or avenge all the bad people, singlehandedly, who have done wrong to your community and the other moment just trying to live through the day thinking if I am to die one day then why the struggle? ,one moment towards" I should save if I am to survive economic crisis " and the next towards " you only live once so you should buy the dress". One day either inspired my health freaks or after reading some terrifying article by God knows who about viruses ruling earth one day, you get sudden urge of getting pro at martial arts or gym techs, start home training and the other instant find yourself lying on bed with a stretched muscle feasting on a pizza and at the end falling asleep because whats the point of everything!



        No matter how fabulous one's degree is , the mind still manages to turn it into a useless one and the efforts spent on it all futile. No matter how strong one's control is over his thoughts, mind still forces the person to compare himself to others, here others dont necessarily mean immediate rishta daron k kids, here others may mean Elon Musk and Jeff Bezos and Neil Tyson. And then the whole focus shifts to start-ups and investments. 

       The most perilous thing one has to go through at this age is finding a partner . You have to get married real quick because suddenly your great great grandmother wants her great great granddaughter to produce a kid before she dies peacefully , or you are about to cross into the infertile age or just because you are getting bald. The fear of not meeting someone of similar mental capacities, be them high or barely of survival level, the fear of not being soulified to someone similar to Salar Sikandar or Angelina Jolie (well the author is utterly unaware of the male ideals) beat the peace out of young minds. Well the struggles a girl has to go through in this society cant be put here as for the fear of article being converted into a controversial yet undisputed book. Poor male lads are also expected to provide for his family and his wife and a dozen expected kids at such an unjust age.  Be it a thought of "just seen face" suddenly becoming your "soulmate" or a long loved lover ultimately getting entry into your extremely privatised life, both thoughts just make you crazy.....................--------



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